i stay with a family on the weekends, i love them to death. they have a 10 month old son, he's so cute.  he was playin with a fan the other day, i just had to record it, its so cute.

I hope everyone had a good Christmas and new year's.  i got me a new ipod

We had a watch night service at church new year's night, it was awesome, had 4 people preach and several people sing.  At the strike of midnight everyone was in the alter, while i was there i realized something.  i've been through so much in 2008, good and bad, it seems mostly bad, but after its all over i wouldn't change one thing.  Everything that i've been through has made me who i am, it's made me stonger.  I've tried drugs, alcohol, sex, cutting, nothing has filled that void like God has.  I'll admit, its been tough to give up the things my flesh is after, but every day that i go without giving in is a victory.  Sometimes i feel like Job, the devil has takin away everything, tested me with everything, in the end i'm still praising God, because "the lord gave and the lord hath taken away, blessed be the name of the lord."  I wasn't as strong as Job, there were times where i just wanted to give up, but i'm so thankful that God takes me back after all the stuff i did, after all the pain and disappointment i've caused him.